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 I started this venture thinking I would have something to write every day. I do. I have so very much.  I don't write the truth because it is so ugly. It hurts so deep in my heart. I blame myself. I have changed so much in my life and the things I would change first, I can't. I can only be a better me and accept the fact I am only responsible for me. 

I'll take it.

 Sometimes I start to get comfortable and cocky thinking about how I am so wise and expert at this ridiculous event called life. The pattern is revealing.  I have always been responsible for someone else or something since I was two and my sister was born. Then my brother came along four years later. The dogs over the years have come and gone. Right now there are two. Kai and Kaz. Cats like my sweet calico, Natalie, we have loved for sixteen years in April.  Through the course of my being, I have acknowledged and embraced the gift of caregiver. I have been overzealous in it and sometimes resentful. I am no angel, I love to give to others. I find joy and peace in the ability.  The last year I had a couple of glances at mostly being my own caregiver. My children are grown and now my grandchildren are, except the new boy. My heart smiles at the very thought of those sky blue eyes, the shock of blond hair in the middle of his forehead and those two teeth when he smiles. I wish all of us on

THE BEGINNING

  Hello! I am glad you took time out of your busy day to spend a minute with me.  I am from the great state of Texas, born and raised. I am retired. I am a daughter, sister, Mom and G.G.  I have two dogs and my 16 yr old cat. We currently live in Southwest Oklahoma.  I enjoy music and art. I love to create beauty with my hands. The feel of taking an item from plain to alive and beautiful is stimulating and I take great personal pleasure as it comes to fruition. Even the smallest of things, washing a load of towels and folding them warm from the dryer as the clean smell wafts to my senses. I get happy when I scrub my toilet and then flush the bubbles. Simple things.  I am not married or dating. I have come to the realization God is my Provider. My needs are met daily and my wants are few.  My children are the best of my life. My grandchildren bless me. Our lives have not been easy. Things I plan to blog in the future.  This is short and just a brief introduction. I have a lot to learn a